I’m looking forward to getting back to work next Monday. Our last day of school here is 5/23, so I’ll just breeze in to say good-bye to the graduates, finish up the final paperwork, and pack up my office. I am still having some pains/problems, but I do think I can manage those 5 days.
I enjoy spending time alone, reading, listening to music, writing. I’ve filled the last 3 weeks with Eudora Welty, Flannery O’Connor, Matthew Quick, Erle Stanley Gardner, and deeper moments with Reza Aslan, Jane Schaberg, and The Bible. I’ve had daily sing-alongs with the likes of John Prine, Lyle Lovett, The Dead, The Beatles, and Gregg Allman. I’ve even caught up on my Netflix watchlist, but I’ve not been able to write, not even a draft. Though my conscience has berated me without mercy, my fingers have been sulkily refusing to touch the keyboard.
I think I know why: I started Blogging 101 at wordpress on 4/15. I guess I didn’t realize that it was going to be about meeting people, making some new friends, like a class…yes, Exactly like a class. I have made a few comments and am following some really cool blogs, but the introvert in me immediately shut down the social interaction with its shrill, “don’t go in there”. There’s some insecurity involved, of course, since many blogs are better than mine and most are more popular. There are many lessons I have to learn…it’s just that I don’t want to have to actually “talk”, if you know what I mean.
I don’t always get recognized as an introvert because I am not shy. I always just thought I was weird, but I read Susan Cain’s “the Power of Introversion” and found out there are a lot of us with similar personalities. Maybe you’re one, too…
Today was the final day of the class… I finally feel like I can write; in fact, I have actually written this post and I’ve edited some pictures to post over at the garden blog. Hmmm….
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Nicely written! You have so much to offer whether it’s being physically present or through your writing. Are you returning to work next year? I’m so thankful you’re on the mend.
Thanks, Kathy! I’d like to work 3 more years at the nurse job if I continue to have my current principal. I love the kids and the work I do, but things can sour pretty quickly with personnel changes. I’ve always had a problem with authority figures…tee-hee… I’m glad to be feeling better, too!